Today I sit at the keyboard wondering why the house is so quiet at 1:30 in the afternoon instead of simply enjoying the fact. Usually I hear talk radio wafting from the office next door where my husband works from home. There’s no sound at all, though, and I realize he may be taking a rare nap.
This realization should make me happy. After all, he’s not going to disturb my writing if he’s asleep, right? Instead, I found myself wishing he would knock on my door and ask me to come out to spend time with him and the cats.
Why is this? Sure, it’s nice to be wanted but, frankly, the inner critic is telling me to throw in the towel. The dream sequence idea that so motivated me the other day seems to have taken over. My most recent story additions consist of nothing more than aforementioned dream sequences, endless sex scenes, or worse yet, a puzzling combination of the two.
The predicament is actually more funny than truly worrisome, I know. And this bump in the road should motivate me to jump off in another direction, even if the new tangent makes no sense. That’s what the motivational messages on the NaNo web page suggest.
Instead I’m tempted to turn on the television and see what mindless drivel might distract me from my frustration. And therein lies the “no no” from my blog post title. Stopping now, just after 2:00 when possibly a crazily productive hour could lie ahead (I typically write until three on a good day), is a rotten idea.
So, I’m going to wrap this up and jump back into my silly, meandering, but growing manuscript. Trimming, editing, and overall refined plotting can wait. There are words to write that have never seen the light of day. That’s too big an opportunity, some might say even a responsibility, to quit now.
I hope you’re having a productive day, whatever your endeavor. Just keep moving forward and you’ll hopefully find yourself advancing to a better place with every step. Even if your walk only seems to take you backward, I’m rooting for you from my own little path, so hang in there!